officially missing you...

we haven't talked for quite sometime, and i wonder if you are fine...i also wonder what is the reason behind this absence...if you're just too busy to talk to me or you don't really want me in your life anymore...

you asked for time, i gave it to you...but how much more time do you need? you wanted space, i gave it to you...but how much more space do you need? you wanted me to back off, i did...but how much further?

it hurts you know...your silence, your disregard, the distance...but what can i do? nothing really...because no matter how much i want to talk to you to find out what's wrong, it's not enough because you have to want it too...and somehow, it seems to me that you don't want to...i wanted to help you, be there beside you...to hold your hand, cry with you, comfort you...be with you until you get through whatever it is that life has thrown your way...

i miss your presence...i miss the thought that you're just one phone call or text away...i miss the friday night dinners...i miss our conversations...i miss how you'll look at me just once and immediately know what current state of mind i'm in...i miss having you around...i miss my best friend...

are you ever coming back? are things gonna be the way they used to be? i sure hope so...eight years or so of friendship is not nothing... it really means so much to me...you guys are a very important part of my life...i may meet a lot of other people, make new friends, but no one will ever replace the five of you in my heart...

you said we have a lot to talk about and in time, you'll be able to face us again and talk to us...really talk to us...but please, hurry up a bit, will you?

i miss you, mare... come back soon, okay?